Resolutions of '011'

As every year ends, we feel obligated to make changes in the next one. I have a few. Some I am determined to do, while others are a play by ear type.
1. Don't go out to eat this includes all fast food, Starbucks or nice restaurants. Basically no coffee, burrito's or pizza. :( It's only for a year though. Bars are okay.
2. No soda (I don't really drink it but its still a good one)
3. Going back to vegan?
4. finishing things i have already start
Ya that's about it I guess...Vegan might be hard because its still pretty expensive. But who knows.

What's next

So I am on the last week of school, finishing one more final! Its actually a bit of a bore really. (yes, that was a british thing to say, but I have been reading a lot so I can't help it) Maybe that is why I am watching re-runs of the twilight zone while writing it. Anyways, still need to go x-mas shopping, my least favorite holiday of the year. I have narrowed it down to two people that I can afford a present for while still trying to save enough money to pay off the rest of my loan by the middle of january. Yes, what an interesting life I lead at the moment. I am packing up my stuff and am moviong out of my house in a few weeks. But then again, they have been telling me that since last year. Who knows. I don't really care about moving, I mean yes it will be crowded and I am over teenagers and those who believe that they are adults, but its just temporary. And honestly, things are suppose to change. I wasn't planning on living there forever. Well, back to writing I guess.

Almost '011'....

Next year is going to be different. No more childish antics and cheap booze....Well, maybe cheap booze. But yeah, I have resolutions and this time I am going to fulfill them. Hopefully I will be spending the New Year with good friends and awesome dance parties.
Anyways Thanksgiving was good. Nothing too exciting. I met secret baby for the first time and she is adorable. As for black Friday, it was a disappointment and the weekend that followed was.....well in other words "eye opening." Things are going to change that's for sure. I am tired of all the drama. Even if it wasn't that much.

Weekend Recap

I am never drinking again.... Sober people are Buzz Kills and they make you feel like shit. Oh well... Conan is on TONIGHT!!!

Note to self....

Never put off doing physc homework because you do need the full week to do it or else you are stuck in your house for two full days doing nothing but homework. I guess procrastination lost on this one!

Accomplishments this week

Got my Internship, Finished two weeks of summer school so far and FIXED MY VACCUUM! Yes, the less of the accomplishments gave me more happiness than all of the others. I fancy the little things in life. :)

Oh does anyone have a good plan for the fourth of JULY?

It's a long shot but...

I might be flying out to New York on thursday.

Another FML moment

So after a long drawn out process and a lot of youtube research I found how to animate 3d text on After Effects. (don't judge!! I only use premiere!!!) You think then my life would be soooo much easier, but you would sadly be mistaken. Turns out, my Adobe Bridge, which is basically the life line between all Adobe programs on my computer, has decided to make my life even worse. It keeps turning off when I click on it and will make my computer stop working all together. Why is it always my computer that fucks up. I swear all things electronic have a plot against me. That is the end of my rant.

WHY..........

Is it so hard to do 3D animated text on After Effects!!!!!! I know there is an easier way to do it but I can't figure it out!!!!! FML!

Sometimes....

I wonder what it would have been like if I had never gotten on that plane back to San Diego and decided to just "Fuck it" and make a living in New York. It would've been difficult, but I mean isn't life difficult? Ugh. I guess, I just have to not let any other missed opportunities pass me by.

I really thought this was cool

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/boblahlaw

how I have been feeling lately

Motivation

I feel like I need to make something apparent to those who believe that they know what is best for me, "I am going to do what I want. It is no longer up for discussion, I am living my life without you." Now that I wrote that, I am going to say it to them. I want life to be fun and adventurous. If that means i'll be poor longer, than so be it.

What is on my mind

I feel that sometime people underestimate the power of coffee. Especially those TEA drinkers. They think that they are all special and sophisticated because they go for natural herbs and apparently its healthy. They make fun of the coffee people. But how many tea places are there??? Not many. Anyways, now that I said that, I want to get back to the main point. Coffee is very powerful, it wakes you up. It makes you happy. It helps you during those late study nights. Basically without coffee I would not function very well.

On another note, if you are in need for new music, (not new but new to you) you should definitely check out Thao "Goodbye and Goodluck" and The Mountian Goats "Love Love Love." Both songs I highly recommend. Anyways that is about it for now, back to homework.

Quote of the day

Doug Wilson: The Dream, its all over.
Silas Botwin: We'll start over
Doug Wilson: It's America! You get one chance! You blow it and thats it!

I love Weeds

My Love for Art or the Simple Things

So I sometimes go on the internet in search for pictures that are beautiful. This picture caught my eye. It could have been that I was in one of my moods because I was listening to "That's The Way"-Led Zepellin and the song always sends me in a trance. But who cares how I found it really. I just wanted to share it.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Yes, I do like Jack Johnson thanks for asking. Any who, lately nothing has been going on. Other than FINALLY being done with Grossmont forever!!! Now I am just waiting for the college letters to enter my mailbox so then I can finally decide where I would like to spend the new chapter of my life. Fun times. They say it can take until the end of April for them to send you a letter. Oh, how I love California!

Other than that whole debacle I am turning 21 in a week and I have no clue on what I want to do. My family wants to take me out, which is great but I feel like I need the whole experience that one gets when they turn 21. In other words, getting really drunk and being crazy with friends. But I guess I can do that anytime. I have done that. It's just legal this time. I am not really excited about turning 21 either. I think it has a lot to do with the figuring out what I am doing with the rest of my life.

Well, that's it for now.

I WISH I COULD DANCE IN THE RAIN EVERYDAY WITHOUT
A CARE IN THE WORLD!

End of Feb.

Lately, not too much has happened. Just school, which by the way totally kicking comm 122's ass!!! Public speaking is really easy considering I love to talk. haha. My friend has introduced me to this website called 8tracks.com. Basically you make mix tapes on the internet and people listen to them. I think I have found some music soul mates. :)

Other than school, I have been spending my free time watching LOST. It is actually really good. I like the suspense of it all and will gladly accept the fact that I am now part of mainstream America. Hey, if its good its good.

Well, that is about it. PEACE!

RIP 1999-2010

So this past week has been super hard on me. I found out that my Dog Dakota had cancer. Unfortunately, it had already spread everywhere and we couldn't get the tumors removed. We thought that we would be able to have her around for a little while longer but within this past week we found out that her symptoms increased majorly. So on super bowl sunday, I spent the whole day at the pet ER and we ended up having to put her down. Dakota has been with me since I was 10 years old and it really sucks when a childhood pet dies. I know that Dogs don't read, let alone read blogs and there is no way to really talk to the dead, but I would like to say that I miss you Dakota and you were an awesome dog and I love you.

I hate...

When people are with you and all they do is text or talk on the phone.

Conando

I know that I have already mentioned this in an earlier post, But it is offical that Conan Obrien is leaving the tonight show and today is his last day :(! I am actually a lot sadder than I had anticipated. It could be because I was introduced to him when I was little by a friend who would call me up and we would watch it together via phone when he was on the LATE SHOW or it could be because I seriously just saw him a few months agao live and he was so awesome. Yes, all these are true, but I guess I am also sad because I was planning to really try to get an internship with him on his writing staff in the next year. It was a dream of mine and now the PeaCOCK ruined it. So I just want everyone to know that they should watch the show tonight because he has been doing some crazy shit. Also, Will Ferril, Tom Hanks, Neil Young and others will be on tonight so it should be a really interesting show.

Freaky

So I went through these boxes where I had been keeping all my momento's from my childhood past and it was really weird to look back at them today. It is funny how you can completely forget a lot of your childhood, and then you read notes from people you use to hang out with or look at pictures at people you new and allthe memories come back and hit you like a 10 foot tidal wave that came out of nowhere! It may just all feel weird to me because I was listening to Radiohead at the same time I was looking through past memories(Radiohead has this effect on me when I listen to them, they kinda make everything around me sad and depressing, except for 15 steps it is has an upbeat sound to it.)...Whatever it was, it certainly got me thinking. It got me thinking about who I use to want to be and how I have changed dramatically. Not necessarily in a bad way but in a different way. I know that people say when you are young you never really know what is going on and who you are really going to be, but I mean half of us don't even know where we'll be in the next year.(So I find it revelant at all times and not just in our childhood.)It makes me wonder "What if I lived out my childhood dreams and fantasy?" Would I be happier than I am now? Or would everything be the same? Or worse? Granted, we will never know what would have happened, but it still never stops us from wondering.

Aside from that, I am bored STILL. I wish that someone will save me from this disease of apathy that has been growing inside. It has been affecting all of my decisions lately. I just don't care for anything anymore. I have no drive. Won't someone rescue me from this funk?

Update

Lately things have been alright. I am kind of glad for the relaxed mood of things. I do want to go back to school because it is my savior when I have nothing else in my life. Hopefully I'll be getting a job soon, I really need one. I think I am going to try to work at a News Station for a bit while I am here in San Diego because broadcasting is broadcasting. If I can't do it with shows, then why not news?

Last night my Best Friend Quinn came over and we had a girls night which included girly beers and whisky. Needless to say we were able to get drunk and have a great time. We watched Anchorman and laughed at everything, even the not so funny parts. Then we sang Karaoke and videotaped it, so it might be on youtube pretty soon. Side note: When you are have drank and you decide to eat something after 6 mixed drinks, make sure it isn't macaroni and broccoli. Even if the box looks good, it will end up in the toilet.

As for other news NBC (Network Broadcasted by CRAPPY people) has announced that they are moving the Jay Leno show after the evening news, thus making the tonight show with CONAN OBRIEN star at 12:05am and the Late Night with Jimmy Fallon at 1:00am. They did this because they realized that by putting an hour talk show during prime time was not going to boost ratings and thus they weren't earning/saving money. I could have told them that. They also think that Conan is too stubborn because he only appeals to the young demographic such as myself and needed to be more universal. Well lets see ummm... he has only been for 8 or 9 months, everyone knows that a show like that needs to find its way. I know that sounds lame and motherly but I think some of you might understand where I am coming from. Conan announced that he won't be doing the tonight show at 12:05am because for the past 60 years the show starts right after the evening news and he doesn't want to ruin the reputation of the tonight show. He also doesn't want to Fuck up Jimmy's time either. He has no offers of airing on another network so who knows what will happen. I just find it fucked up that you give someone the tonight show and promised them this oppurtunity for 6 years(that is when they signed the contract that he was taking over the show) and then be like SIKE. Conan moved along with his staff from the awesome NEW YORK where its okay to have bad air because it makes sense to LA where everyone is all trying to be hippies and vegans and global warming and the bad air is still there? I'd be pissed and I am. Conan doesn't want people to feel sorry for him, but really its not about him its about ME. WTF am I suppose to do now after the news that I don't ever watch? I really like him as a comedian and I went to the show and he was there and he was super tall, like REALLY FUCKING tall and he was all nice and now I am sad. I like Jay Leno but he said he was going to retire and I know that he isn't the one who is pushing it, it is the network people but COME ON! REALLY? you think you have bad ratings now? Just wait, everyone will boycott the station and then you will go bankrupt and die. Okay too extreme and overly optomistic in a sense. But ya that is my rant on a favorite new show of mine that is like 80% certain to be ending in two weeks. He also put his studio up on craigslist and it says "For Sale, Barely USED". Okay so I am done with my rant now I guess. Tune in next time where I go off about the banks and the 100,000 bonuses they give to themselves.

010

First off, Nathan this is the website for you. http://www.entertainmentcareers.net/sbjobs/, you can also check out internships as well. I don't know if all of them pay but some do.

Now onto this year. So far so good. Been hanging out with cool kids and relaxing. I am glad to have good people in my life that help me when I am down which I have been down a bit lately. But hey new year new start. I have 4 months before I turn 21 so that is exciting I guess. I can dance my stress away when I can finally be admitted to clubs. Oh the little joys in life! So I have 5 goals that I want to try to accomplish this year that I know I can do if I try hard enough.
1.shape up
2.New car
3.Pay off loan and find good job to do that (yes it counts as one goal because it is a cause and effect type of scenario)
4.Get internship at production company!!!!!!!! Speilberg here I come :)
5.Film more
This year is going to be great. I can say this now because it has only been 4 days into 010 but there shouldn't be any reason for it to suck. Well that is it for now.